I turned 25 and began to receive A LOT of comments about how my dreams were too big. This had never happened before. I apparently needed to settle down and think about marriage and kids. I am still shocked at the amount of resistance I was met with for being a dreamer, for always aspiring for more. At 26, this hasn't changed much and there are very few people who reassure me that I'm not crazy to want more. I have always asked myself who I was or who I wanted to be, but with the feeling that there were no limits to how much I could expand. Now, I doubt a lot more. At 26, I'm making a list of moral and values, almost like my own terms and conditions, from me to me, to further assess who I am. I never anticipated self-discovery to be this hard. Often, I wonder if self-discovery is just getting back to my old self. Maybe I know her already, I just need to give her more space. Anyway, thank you for this piece!
thank you for this perspective: "I never anticipated self-discovery to be this hard. Often, I wonder if self-discovery is just getting back to my old self." Perhaps growing up is just that.
I turned 25 and began to receive A LOT of comments about how my dreams were too big. This had never happened before. I apparently needed to settle down and think about marriage and kids. I am still shocked at the amount of resistance I was met with for being a dreamer, for always aspiring for more. At 26, this hasn't changed much and there are very few people who reassure me that I'm not crazy to want more. I have always asked myself who I was or who I wanted to be, but with the feeling that there were no limits to how much I could expand. Now, I doubt a lot more. At 26, I'm making a list of moral and values, almost like my own terms and conditions, from me to me, to further assess who I am. I never anticipated self-discovery to be this hard. Often, I wonder if self-discovery is just getting back to my old self. Maybe I know her already, I just need to give her more space. Anyway, thank you for this piece!
thank you for this perspective: "I never anticipated self-discovery to be this hard. Often, I wonder if self-discovery is just getting back to my old self." Perhaps growing up is just that.
"is it weird to say my dream is ‘everything, everywhere all at once’?"
it's not. you dream it, you go for it. <3
Hey Mikai, would love to connect!
I write about women and the patriarchal pressures of society, I’m new at SS, would love to hear feedback - https://vostrength.substack.com/p/i-am-not-a-mans-nameand-i-never-will?utm_source=substack&utm_content=feed%3Arecommended%3Acopy_link